Wow it's been some time since I've disappeared and yes please ignore the post before this. It's rather the lowest of time in life I'll ever experience and yes I'm forgiving but forgetting takes some time though. =)

Well much have past and I'm in the YOG + Study week break before the semester exams. And yes of course and again i'm still not prepared but I shall not let history repeat itself by studying last minute again.

This few days I've been rather busy in the mornings cos of yog. Well though it's quite tiring and much more for those who stay further away from kranji, it's really an enjoyable experience. Why? Cos we get to walk, bathe, and groom horses and eventually there would be some horses which u would favor very much.

Well this LE Lucky. Very talented in show jumping. He's got a calm behaviour and would stay extremELY still to let u scratch behind his ears. =)

Haha now this is Belcam chocolate. 2nd most favourite. Why? Cos he's got 'attitude'. But in actual fact he can be pretty nice. And yes he's been disqualified cos of his 'dangerous' behaviour. Hope someone nice would adopt him after the competitions.

Now these two are really truELY in love. No kidding when I say this cause they can't be alone from each other except during training time. Apart from that they will keep neighing loudly until they see each other. LovELY couples. =)

So much about the horses. Well back to life. I just realised that alot of people are actually expecting alot from me. I'm only studying veterinary technology and they're (church members and relatives) already asking me which country will I go to further my vet studies. I haven thought about that portion and they are all asking me the countries. And and I secretly think that my mum expects a lot from me too. Like if my room's messy she would say things like how will i survive if i study overseas and occasionally she teaches me how to cook simple meals so i can do the same when i'm 'overseas' studying. She does so many things and buys so many things for me and treats me really well. Giving me extra money when she feels that I don't have enough. And yes as a spendthrift loser here, most of the time it really comes in handy.

Then again it's hard for me to tell those around me that I'm actually only barely surviving. I don't wanna disappoint them. Especially my mum and dad who puts high hopes on me as indirectly as possible. Although their expectations can be felt so clearly.

Gosh I'm really lost. Seriously. I don't know what I wanna pursue and stuffs like that. I need help. =(